It’s very late and I probably shouldn’t be typing comments to important matters, but I’m not known for good decisions so here we go…

When my head was filled with suicidal thoughts and things like that, what helped me was to view myself less as a continuous being. The person I was a decade ago is so different from the person I am now that I consider him dead. The person I will be a few years from now will be someone different again. So either way the me that was in pain got the end he wanted, just this way he didn’t deny the current me my existence. (For which I’m grateful.) He only had to endure a few years, not the whole lifetime of the body. Some might think that a negative way of looking at things, but it did really make it easier to keep going.

Also, it’s good to keep in mind that even if all the negative “This and that will never happen.” thoughts were true, the next you might have a very different attitudes towards them. I am just as alone as the previous me was, but where it caused him emotional and existential turmoil to the point of physical pain, to me it just… doesn’t really matter. I’m able to be content, at times even happy, despite it. Something the previous me thought an impossibility. Even if some things might not change, you will. And sometimes there’s a cat.

Anyways, I’m glad you are trying things. Reading, going outside and whatnot. Even if they don’t bring you as much joy or fulfilment as you might want, the new experiences and thoughts might help with the growth of the next you. If I may make a suggestion, journaling could be a nice addition to the list. Not a diary, but occasionally writing down thoughts and things you think a future you specifically could find interesting. It’s something I wish I had done more. I remember how I saw the world and myself to a degree, but I don’t understand why. As I never wrote it down, and past me’s thinking feels too alien to guess reasons for now, in hindsight.

I don’t know if any of this personal experiences bullshit is helpful or interesting to you, I doubt it, but as you pointed out I don’t know you. But I know myself, and so I figured I’d write down some thoughts that I wish the past me had thought about a little earlier than he did. In any case, I wish you luck in your battles and that things will get better soon. Since, at least in this moment, I do genuinely care. I need not know you to feel that way, it’s enough to know there is a person out there who feels broken. I’ve unlocked the superpowers of basic empathy, I suppose.

Good night.

I haven’t really been playing in a while, but uhh… They did WHAT !?

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Yup, looks like they did that. Even found quotes on wiki from Mod North about how pride stuff in games ‘is now becoming controversial’. Well, that’s disappointing.

Gandalf said he wasn’t interested, so Saruman locked him in the attic. “He’ll learn to love me eventually.”

That’s neat! We just have a sign on the river, and people guess when the ice will start moving. More precisely, when the sign will pass under the bridge. A dummy would definitely be more fun, but some teenagers would probably steal or break it… or someone would mistake it for someone drowning in the spring as it travels towards the sea. Maybe it’s better to just stick to the sign.

Sadly I’ve yet to unlock this ability. One day I too shall become fun and whimsical.

“Why does it smell like burning hair in here…?” ( Very cozy bonus! ^- )

Painbows are terrifying indeed.

I just use this against compliments.

The mightiest motivation of all to find the bugs! Must keep Hooty fed and happy.

Me having discussions with the voices.

One of the weird guys who come to a small grocery store without a shirt and start screaming at the poor cashier when they don’t sell a very specific brand of tar shampoo. I’d say you did quite well indeed.

Unless we’re talking about pets, funny enough.

Some thumbnails work for me, others don’t. Either way, that’s a creepy dragon! I like it.

Final boss approaches…

The green-black things remind me of ‘black metal’ in Valheim, collected as scrap metal from some goblin creatures. It’s now my headcanon that this is what their civilization was like before its collapse. They use fire magic too, which also fits.

“As far as I’m concerned, you are my only opponent here.”

Huh, good thing she didn’t pull this off against the three guys from earlier. Although, that would have been rather entertaining.

This might honestly be one of my favorite paintings I’ve seen. I’ve never wanted to have any art on my walls, but I actually wouldn’t mind falling asleep looking at this. The moon (?) is a nice touch as well, makes the whole a lot more interesting.

Juu kyllä täällä ainakin joitain on. Itse aloin lajittelemaan kaikki syötteet uusimmat ensin jo ekan päivän aikana, niin en ole tuohon ongelmaan törmännyt. Kannattaa tehdä sama ellet vielä ole.

Internetin kuolemasta; ei se kaiketi ihan vielä kupsahtanut ole. Pitänee odottaa kunnes Youtuben uusista videoista ei löydy muuta kuin AI:n tekemää.

I remember reading so many of these as a kid. I had completely forgotten about these. A nice surprise in my feed.

I never really learned this skill. I can just lie down in bed all day doing nothing (apart from thinking), and not get bored. This trait is not very beneficial for productivity…