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  • treekotoLemmy Shitpostgotta be sure...
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    2 months ago

    Only ten times?? You need to keep rereading until you achieve ego death and the words blend into an alphabet soup… I would have accidentally sent hundreds of videos of me masturbating by now if I were so reckless as to only reread 10 times……









  • You’re definitely not alone in this. Matches really closely with my experience. As long as I can remember I can’t recall childhood memories to the point that the child version of me feels like a different person - dissociation is strong. It’s been bothering me more and more and has had me thinking something traumatic must have happened because what else would explain it?

    I’ve been in therapy for half a year now and learning a lot about myself. I’ve been doing EMDR with my therapist and it’s been enlightening. I haven’t uncovered any specific major traumatic event yet but I’m connecting with suppressed and abandoned parts of myself. For the moment I’m going with the assumption that I have CPTSD (complex PTSD) which is a chronic version of the acute PTSD. I’ve also learned I have a fearful (or disorganized) attachment style and am a carrier of toxic shame so I’d recommend looking into those concepts since they seem to correlate.

    I’m proud of you for posting and questioning - you’re on the path, my friend :)